We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, ... -US Declaration of Independance

I have been told by so many people who hear the story of my hanging in Ecuador that my survival is a miracle.  My so called 'blessing' is now enduring illnesses and injuries that will merely leave me in increasing agony (nearly bed ridden already) for decades to come. I can expect no miracle full healing...instead a consistant downward slide.  Ah compassion, what a rare and beautiful thing it must be. I don't know it personally...but it is nice to read it on the euthenasia sites.

 Based on what I have read, it seems that:

*the anti-Euthenasia folks argue the point via philosophy, religion (protected under decl. of Independance), ideologies, dogma, etc. ** They argue for ideas.**

*Whilst pro-Euthenasia folks argue the individual and one's individual and personal rights, which include self determination.  One's right to "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness" thru freedom from illness, agony and pain (also incedently, guaranteed in the declaration of independance).  **They argue for people.**

I am not an idea...I am a person.   Please do not argue away my personal human rights for your dogmatic ideologies.

MY happiness is freedom from pain, being a pin cushion, free of bags of pills, that in turn cause their own pain.  I claim my Independance from state tyranny blocking me from my basic human rights layed out in the declaration of Independance of my country of birth.   I am utterly indignant that complete strangers believe they have a right, no, an obligation, to weigh in, decide for me, my destiny...my rights and/or decline the restriction of those same guaranteed rights.

 Why do so many people demand their 'freedom' ( let us use the religious as they -esp. Americans- are the most vocal and demanding)....but in turn to then have the audacity to deny those very same freedoms to others with whom they dogmatically and ideologically disagree.  Seems a bit selfish (being polite) tbh.  As person who endures ongoing pain and continual decrease in the abilty to obtain a happy life.  I still maintain the same right of access to happiness as every other living being. I am not terminal...but that should not remove my rights!  I claim my right to my own 'pursuit of happiness'...mine happens to be, freedom from pain.


Suicide        - A permanent solution for a temporary problem.
Euthenasia - A permanent solution for a permanent problem
                        (mine is ongoing pain, agony & deteriorating autoimmune illnesses)


Not too much to ask I believe.  One less voter to oppose this country's innane drive to destroy itself by right wing, dogmatic, intollerant, beligerant, superficial, greedy, amoral, unethical and typically uneducated fools and their disasterous agenda's.

Tonight, I stand with Chief Spence. No food passes these lips.


On this eve of the 13th year into the 21st Century I weep. I weep for greed, I weep for selfishness. I weep for the backwardness we continue to live in. I weep for the ancestors, I weep for the coming generations. I weep for the oppressors. I weep for the financial industry, the oil industry, the chemical industry, etc. I weep for the media and all of its corrupt, weak, compromised, lazy, dishonest reporters. I had such hope for mankind moving into the 21st century but instead we were greeted with hatred, contempt, greed, warmongering and continuation of the ills of our forefathers. In my blood I carry slave owners and possibly slaves, I carry conquistadors, Mexican peasants and Native peoples. I carry religious zealots, nobility and Vikings. I carry the blood of the Americas. I carry the burden of them all.

On this New year's eve I remember back and I look forward...lifetimes of pain and starvation. In this world we live in today there is enough food to feed the world's population...yet tonight there are children and elders who will enter the new year hungry. There is enough medicine and health care for all yet there are ill, injured and disabled people who go without medicine or care. There are enough homes for every human on this planet, yet there are millions of people who will go to sleep this night with no shelter, while mansions which could fit a small village sit heated, but empty or near empty.

Why do we think a person in a corner office of a high-rise building is more important than the garbage collector who keeps disease from our doorsteps. Why do the people who sit in positions of power running governments think they deserve more than the teacher enlightening our children? Why does a man running around a field for a few hours deserve more than the fast food worker working 60 - 80 hrs a week that feeds his team after their celebration victory? Why does the queen of England and all of her relations drink champagne while the many peoples the world over that HER family caused to be raped, slaughtered and subjugated continue to endure the same abuses as they have for hundreds of years.

For all of the billions of people who espouse religious fervor and faith… why is it we still endure these tragedies? When will YOU PEOPLE WAKE THE FUCK UP??? How many have to die so the top 20% can keep their multiple households or large mansions? How many people have to suffer unending pain and misery so the few can enjoy unfair advantages? What will it take for the media to stand up and be honorable again?

I am brokenhearted. I weep. I weep for all mankind. You, each individual person, participate in the perpetration of this evil…this sham. Each human being on this planet is responsible. Each person can be an agent for change. Why don’t you, each one of you, stand up for truth and right? Why do you grumble about offering help to those less fortunate than yourselves? Using the excuse of judgement or de-humanizing those less fortunate than yourselves? Why do you continue to ask for less taxes when you know very well in the depths of your soul that the needs of others are sooo much greater than your own? Why do you, the middle class, exempt yourselves from responsibility (for you are indeed part of the 20%)? Why don’t YOU stand up against bullying tactics of each of your governments (and I don’t only mean the USA)? Why do we continue to allow these corrupt greedy individuals lead us? Why do we allow a monarchy who does nothing but gestures continue to run multiple countries while doing very little REAL change for fear of losing their personal power? What is the point of a Queen or King if they do nothing but cut ribbons at ceremonies? I call for the Queen of England, UK and the commonwealth to put her crown on the line and actually do something meaningful foe once in her reign! Stand up to your leaders and take responsibility!!! Rectify the horrid error YOUR ancestor did to our peoples!

May Creator bless each human being on this planet tonight. May Creator strike you, each person, with the reality of what the real world looks like. May Spirit grace you with empathy and understanding of what is truly important. May Spirit guide you to action, selfless, compassionate action. May each of you finally understand the only thing you truly own is what you take with you upon your death. And to question yourself and motivation. Is any of it really worth the cost of your soul?

I weep tonight for my hope in mankind is lost.

-KiyaWakan

Day One of the week before Rebooting

ok... so I saw this movie, "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" last week.  Wow Joe Cross really made an impact on me!  I am on day 10 of excruciating Chronic fatigue...my pain level is reasonable (other than my stupid migraine).  I discovered today, for the 3rd month now my insurance disability payment has not gone into my bank correctly.  grrr Well I HAD to get down to the bank and remedy the negative balance.  Bloody people not understanding that disabled people depend on the nickles and dimes thrown our way!

Anyway, As I was out of bed...I figured I better take advantage of the situation... so I bought myself a new "slow" juicer (Omega Vert 350HD) for $300.  Originally $379 I used a Bed Bath & Beyond 20% off coupon!  Bless them!  What a wonderful surprise! Then headed over to Whole Foods in Cherry Creek.  It's been years since I was in that store.  WOW!!! It has definitely improved.  I got $80 of veggies (YIKES!) to get started on this 60 day veg/fruit juice fast.

For now ...since I feel so sick, I will summarize and go back later and fill details.

Drank big very green tasting drink (well 2 tall glasses a couple of hours apart).
Ok have to stop... migraine pounding... elbow hurting like hell...and I am exhausted.

It did give me energy today... but now I hurt... sigh

The video description of my hanging

Hi,  My name is Robin.  I have decided to blog my journey towards regaining the real me, my health and my life.  My life was utterly upended in July 2006 when I was hung while travelling in Ecuador.  Here is my video explaining what happened to me on the train called, "The Devil's Nose".

http://youtu.be/4YaVE-lohyU